At the beginning of this year I resolved to update everyday and blog about my successes or failures to hold myself accountable. The past few days have been a challenge. My youngest daughter stands up to the kids that bully the little guy (she has 2 learning disabilities and is often made fun of for it too) has been dealing with cyberbullying and yesterday it made it's way into the school. I have held my daughter while she cries her eyes out and even as she made comments that seriously scared the heck out of me. The school is involved and today the police will be involved. So it has been a little hard to find happiness the past few days.
When my kids entered school, I taught them to stand up for those kids that are made fun of every day and called horrible, hurtful names. Stand up to the mean kids and don't back down. Right now, my youngest daughter is missing school because of what one boy said on Facebook and what others said about her and because 61 people liked his comment about being a hypocritical whore. The comments he made, made me cry and feel like I was back in high school. She has lost her determination to beat this bully and his hurtful words and the words of others. My daughter has only been "mean" to the so-called better kids who obviously can dish the hate but can't take it when they are stood up too.
I was a student of the same school that my kids currently attend. Kind of strange for an Army spouse to say but God and the Army decided my hometown was where we needed to be stationed the longest and most often. I was bullied by the rich, popular, pretty, skinny, the so-called better kids. I cried myself to sleep almost every night because I didn't understand why. I was ugly, fat, and smart, I was the quiet nerd that sat at the back of the class and didn't speak and definately didn't speak up for myself or others that were going through it. I have been bullied my whole life and I thought I had grown out of it. I realized last year at this time, that I was still be bullied by the person that I thought was my best friend.
We actually covered this a few months ago when we were talking about Battle Buddies and toxic relationships. We all go through this and often this is the reason why we don't participate in our FRGs and embrace a group like ours. We are widerange group of spouses, that are different, have different beliefs and likes, different histories but we have this awesome Military life in common. We tolerate no drama, no bullies. Yet we allow people to bully us outside of this group. When we "jokingly" make fun of what someone wears, their weight, looks, etc. and say "just kidding" we accept the bullying tactic to occur. It has become a society norm and it is WRONG! Our kids have learned this from watching us and they think it is okay. Parents can't see what their kids are doing because they do it themselves. Well, I for one and tired of it! I don't my daughter or your daughter to be the statistic that brings it to our front door. So I have added to my resolutions: I will not allow bullies to win and I will not be a part of the bully cycle anymore. I will love all of us for the way we are, we are beautiful and unique and we were made that way for a reason.
I have realized over the past 20 years that the bullies that we grow up with, grow up to either fall on their face or continue to bully as an adult. I finally found my voice as an adult and fight for myself and for others, it is why I am telling you this today. Find your strength, talk to someone, if you are being harassed by other spouses, etc. talk to someone, talk to anyone. There are professionals available who really do care and they can't help you fix it, if they don't share it and find your determination to fight for you. There are kids and adults going through the same thing you are going through, you don't have to go through it alone and you don't have to stand up to it alone. Eventually, it does get better even though it feels like it never will. Whatever you do.....DON'T GIVE UP!